[Libre-soc-dev] MHA-03402-V5V8D1- Leighton- 57498 (FAO Turi Maddison)

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i have spent over 18 months researching medical symptoms,
reading peer reviewed academic research, and the most
likely cause of the excruciating and debilitating pain
that i have had to endure for around 20 years is an
orodontal microbe infection. there is some evidence
to suggest it may even be over 40 years.

combined with both autism and stress from domestic violence
i have the symptoms of extensive brain damage, symptoms of
two strokes, in extreme circumstances when i got pneumonia
i was exhibiting (transient) cerebral palsy symptoms and
also exhibiting TIA symptoms.

i have told people who are abusive to me that when distraught
i am both in excruciating pain as well as exhibiting symptoms
of brain-oxygn starvation.

every single person whom i have told this to has catastrophically
failed to listen, and continues to "judge" me by "normalie"
(non-disabled, non-autistic) standards.

my stepfather dismissed my "behaviour" in a prejudicial way.

my mother six weeks ago used the exact same weaponised language
use by my domestic-violent ex-partner, that caused me to go into
convulsions on the floor of my former home, damaging my ability
to speak and likely causing burst blood vessels in my brain
(hence the frequent recurring TIA symptoms). i had *just
specifically told her* that her behaviour could be lethal:
her response was to use weaponised sarcasm to evade all
responsibility.

LENAARS even stated bluntly "we fund autistic project managers,
and they are not a problem". he did NOT ask "why are you so
different?". having been told by CALDERWOOD that i am a
violent abusive liar he was unable to listen even when i
got over the shock (which given my medical conditions was an
assault) of his statement.

autistic individuals have a damaged (underdeveloped) Claustrum,
an area of the brain responsible for coordinating complex tasks.
combined with brain-oxygen starvation under shock and torture
conditions i have been unable to cope with the complexity of
the violence, abuse, torture and blatant prejudice.

i am in a dangerous position, unable to safely go out due to
police in the local area engaging in "entrapment" operations.
at a local cafe a pair of police officers showed me a picture
of a naked woman on their phone and asked me if i wanted to go
with them. i made jokes aboutit and successfully evaded their
entrapment.

however a friend explained to me that police are frequently
bribed by mafia. the number of people that die in police
custody from brutality is shockingly high.

it would be easy for them to plant drugs.

on learning of this and other dangers i have not ventured
out of this apartment in over two weeks.

i am beginning to give up all hope of ever escaping from
this nightmare that began when i was fooled by a narcissist
into thinking i was entering into a loving relationship to
raise a family.

i do not understand why nobody listens - not when i am in
excruciating debilitating pain, not when i write the truth,
not when i describe the horrors of being tortured, not at
any time.

i have *extensive* video evidence of life-threatening medical
symptoms and of being tortured.

in eighteen months i have yet to receive a single acknowledgement
(with the exception of a journalist who now no longer speaks
to me) of the video evidence. i suspect they have been severely
traumatised from watching some of the evidence.

my life now involves sitting in front of a tablet, playing
computer games and watching films and youtube videos, in
order to remain distracted from the horror of what i have
experienced, knowing that i am trapped and completely
helpless and powerless.

i have attempted to get a lawyer: it requires money.

i have asked many people for help to get a lawyer: i have not
received a response.

i am exposed directly to abusive organisations, and interactions
with their ongoing abuse continues the torture, not just
from re-living the horrors but adding to them as their ongoing
abuse and negligence accumulates.

thirty police reports in eighteen months, not one single arrest.
excuse after excuse is given.

i feel utterly alone, isolated, powerless, and lost. i have
never experienced such humiliation of being trapped and
disregarded.