[Libre-soc-dev] RfPs Libre-SOC Cavatools: Power ISA Simulator // 2021-08-071 declined

[Alexandre Oliva]

Luke,

On Aug 21, 2024, Luke Kenneth Casson Leighton via Libre-soc-dev <libre-soc-dev at lists.libre-soc.org> wrote:

> On Wednesday, August 21, 2024, Michiel Leenaars <michiel at nlnet.nl> wrote:

>> at this point, what we need is proper documentation of the individual
>> outputs of tasks and for you to position these individual outputs in a
>> coherent overview of each of the two projects as a whole. In order to be
>> able to test, make sure that the repositories contain up to date
>> information on how to compile, which dependencies are needed, etc. If
>> you provide that in time, we can successfully wrap up the two projects
>> still.

> in THREE DAYS?? when you had THIRTEEN WEEKS to go through this calmly,
> helping me to step through the devastating abuse I have been subjected to,
> by doing what I asked which was to ASK QUESTIONS?

AFAICT they don't know much about our condition, aren't familiar with
mental rigidity, meltdowns, and the double empathy challenges that we
often face, and there's not enough time for them to learn about it.  It
would be desirable and satisfying for these aspects of our existence to
get through to them so they'd stop discriminating and hurting us, but
that's hard to overcome after initial impressions and misassumptions
have already set in, with a possibly that can't be ruled out of
malicious poisoning of relationships.  TBH, it doesn't seem like a good
time to insist on that line of our autistic needs because of our
disability, or even to mention it: they might take those as threats just
as you take some of their statements as threats, precisely because of
the double empathy difficulties.  (Heck, we can't even rule out that
some project contributors also lacked that understanding, can we?)

Do you think you could overcome this pursuit, overlook the perceived
insults (that drive me furious as well) and injustice and discrimination
and whatnot, and try to hyperfocus the next few days on writing this
report, so as to relieve another major stress point?

Incidentally, I wrote a piece about neurodivergence, with a focus on
some autistic traits we share, originally for an I&D newsletter, but
I've since decided to make it available for a wider audience, and
because I hope it could be useful in the current circumstance, I've made
the draft publicly available here:
https://www.fsfla.org/blogs/lxo/draft/neurodivergence

I acknowledge it would have be desirable to have it mentioned long ago,
and setting aside the frustration out of all the communication
difficulties will be quite a challenge.  But please, for your own sake,
could you focus your attention and efforts on the report?

-- 
Alexandre Oliva, happy hacker                  https://FSFLA.org/blogs/lxo/
   Free Software Activist                         GNU Toolchain Engineer
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