[Libre-soc-dev] MHA-03402-V5V8D1- Leighton- 57498 (FAO Turi Maddison)

[lkcl]

laura, toni,

in amongst the nightmares that continue to keep me awake,
even this morning, i recall things that i had forgotten,
or have already reported and not received a response.

one of them is that, as an engineer and scientist i needed
to test, document and preserve as evidence sufficent for
a court of law the effects of the illegally-forced ingestion
of a known toxic substance, on the basis that as a software
engineer my ability to perform complex work should under
absolutely no circumstances be compromised.

i have been doing sudokus for over 15 years. my record using
"opensudoku" for an "extreme hard" sudoku is under 2 minutes,
with variation between 3 and 6 being normal, and rare outliers
being around 12. the famous sudoku created by a mathematician
as the hardest ever in the world took me three weeks of
persistent bloody-minded trial and error.

without the assistance of my tablet (which had been seized)
i attempted to do sudokus by hand, which requires a manual
preparatory step that can take up to 25 minutes which the
opensudoku software can complete instantly.

whilst being poisoned i found i repeatedly made mistakes during this
preparatory phase, resulting in me regularly having to
abandon them after more than an hour.

however the bit that i found most deeply distressing was that
in attempting to do the sudokus i felt like i was "looking
down a tunnel out of a box", hyperfocussing on the task of
eliminating numbers but UNABLE TO SIMULTANEOUSLY DEPLOY
STRATEGIC ANALYSIS that i usually perform and am aware
i am performing: the "logic elimination" analysis being
usually an autonomous task.

that autonomous task of number-elimination instead became the
key and only task which i could perform, and even that task
i was barely able to do through the compromised "tunnel"
awareness.

i attribute this severely compromised ability to perform
complex logic tasks that i have been practicing for 15 years
directly to being wilfully poisoned by the "doctors" you have
stated clearly was your direct responsibility for "care".

there is absolutely no question whatsoever that i would be in
a position to earn money as a software engineer with my
capacity to carry out complex tasks being so damaged.

the distress caused by KNOWING that i was not being heard,
that the very same evening i would once again be forced to
ingest a lethal toxic substance that would further damage
my ability to perform complex tasks AND I WOULD GO THROUGH
ANOTHER NINETY MINUTES OF ANAPHYLAXIS THAT WOULD BE IGNORED BY
NURSES DESPITE BEING REPORTED IN WRITING, i cannot even begin to
relate to you how i felt, but it involved terror and
disbelief, with resultant triggering of cortisol which is known
medically to suppress the hippocampus, immune system and
other damaging effects. this in someone who has already
been tortured and abused.

can you imagine what it is like to be writing to "doctors",
"please stop, your actions are killing me", and nobody
listens, andthey force you night after night to ingest a
substance that you *know* could result in your death,
night after night?

and your fucking moronic brother, who does not once speak to
you to find out the truth, writes to your LAWYER AND TO MEDICAL
EXPERTS saying "it's perfectly safe: legal action will be taken
if you interfere"

i reported being unable to do sudokus to your "management".

i did not receive a response.

l.